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Do I remind you of the pain
That he put you through, girl
Is that the reason I’m to blame
Before I do it…
Is it because he, treated you badly
I always stand accused
Protecting yourself, from somebody else
I’m not who’s hurting you
girl..

And it’s killing me girl knowing you compare me to him
Always guilty before the sin
I can’t win, I can’t win
I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl would I refuse to
Pay for something I didn’t do
I love you, girl
But I refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes

He left a scar across your heart
I understand, girl
Don’t let his wrongs tear us apart
Girl I’m your man

Just because he did
You swear I’m cheating
You think I just don’t care
Why must I do time
For another man’s crime
Girl you know that aint fair

And it’s killing me girl knowing you compare me to him
Always guilty before the sin
I can’t win, I can’t win
I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl would I refuse to
Pay for something I didn’t do
I love you, girl
But I refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes

I know he did you wrong
But tell me what does that have to do with me
Trying to show you something real
Figure out what is going on
Before you look up and I’ll be gone..

I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl but I refuse
To pay for something I didn’t do, girl
I love you, and I love you I love you

I’ll do anything to prove I love you
Baby girl but I refuse
To pay for something I didn’t do, no
I love you, girl
But I refuse to stay
Paying for his mistakes

 im sooo sry abt what happened jane :/
and i only knew about it recently zz
just rmbr if u need anything just give me a call k ?
hope jerome's all right too <3

so yea, me and hazel, nt gna work
damn missed 1/1/11   so swee right wtf
haha its okay i'll still love her (: as a friend la
so now the next nice date is like 11/11/11 ???  
but siao, what meaningful thing to do on that day sia ?!

told my parents about the sleeve,   :/
haiya, expected response but
still gna go ahead with it anyway.

quit havaiainas, or instead got myself fired on purpose haha
gna go work that factory thing with mayi and weikang
just need to make the call asap
jobless for now ((; 


and the firewire jailbreak thingy is finally out !!!!
swee la, gna go down geylang sometime soon and get the iphone broken into so i can use it.
life's so boringg,   ohwell, its gna be smth ive got to get used to :/

my last off day,  ahh, shiok ah
at least i havent wasted my time in hibernation
got back at 7, slept till 2. nt bad leh (:
body clock alright alr.
last night lan was ownage
we're still undefeated at headshot yishun lol
2 weeks of gg there, almost 10 straight games won
hahaha gt a new garena id,xiaobeng1997
the rest of them have xiao smth 1997 too lol
go in game everybody make fun of the name and age
play alr own (: then fuck them up hahaha
my new secondary acct, use it to doall the lj stuf like flame and xialan ppl \m/

pay still not in yet wtff!!!
wna get my cap asap, got my haircut already !
haha thanks tata, i rly like it.
later most prob gna get it then go for a movie, or go explore the serangoon nexxx thingy then go for a movie
sian leh, work tmr :/


hope that you are doing fine over there.
hopefully thailand is treating you well
its like i want and simultaneously dont want u back
like i miss u,but i'm scared of the answer :/
ohwell.  If not you. nobody <3

finally know where to get a decent cap
thx nick (:
most prob gna head over there after work
and then settle my haircut datee.
and after that settle another appointment.
but before that ive to settle stuff before that particular appointment
and after all this, work like no ones business
then go ns, then settle my future.
it sure does look fucking bleak now.

wna go out with keron, jst, xl etc
ah hong, joyi, ts etc
teo, candice, kim etc
kang, art, tgx etc
but so little off days, HOW ?!

need some h2h peeps
ASAP

aiyah its decided, gna go for it.
it really hasnt paid off being good so yea.

and another thing i realised.
a decent girl is one in a freaking million
no point trying it out with every one of them lol
waste time waste tears.
so when she comes, just do ur part, sparks fly gd, if not suck thumb lo
and, after listening to sooooo many probs
i realised one thing
LIFE ISNT A BITCH UNLESS U'VE GOT ONE IN YOUR LIFE.
write it down, think about it. its true.

dunno wtf im gna do with my life still.
ns next year with kang then let the older paul think about it??
aiyohhhhh, sianism. made a choice, now having to bear the consequence.


she's just perfect for me.
but im just such a letdown.

 the chalet was like
freaking awesome ?
everyone high on each other ahha
mummybenny doing and saying ridiculous stuff
getting to know people better. it was just FLY.
thks for organising pa !!  ur effort paid off with everyone having a great time.

accompanied corin after work tdy, pei her eat
and waitwait, kang was so sweet tdy haha, he came to find me during my break  <3<3
ya back to after work, slacked there, helped her do her rj
THATS WHEN I PANICKED
i had to THINK about how to string a proper sentence tgt
sibei jialat fuck. i need to start reading again.
its like i typed smth, then re-read it, then i had to correct all the tense, grammar and  EVEN PUNCTUATION mistakes
super depressing, urghghg 

*fingerscrossed*
please dont give up ):

 it really isnt moving on, its about forgiving e other person for hurting u
and forgiving urself for anything u did or did not do to cause e breakup.
it isnt about forgetting the past, its about planning and thinking for your future
cuz our brain rly isnt wired to forget e past lol
sure everyones entitled to a mourning period, e shorter the better. life goes on
trust me, those friends that really love u and care for u will fill that void.
once u move past the threshold of reminiscence and anger.
you're a new person,
love like you've never been hurt
and trust like you've never been a fool.

  PAY ALL SPENT ALR SIA, haha  i'd expect 120 to last me longer lol
later still need to go watch rapunzel, 
and mom left e house without leaving me cash :S
jialat, how sia, call her nvr pick up, sms nvr reply
win alr lo D:


oh and fyi, i like hazel
*fingers crossed*
(:

 K I DECIDED
not gna buy anythingggggggg
see all the yusof ishak's looking back at me from e bank more shiok hahaha
gt so little cash hw to label sia.
label, but with e word flop at the back
so many out there lol  rly cmi sia

works been greaatttt  (:
can use fb on the cashier sia HAHAH
and for e past few days the aircon was like kns.
machiam freezer sia.

went over to pa's yest, 
played a few rounds of dota lol, but the lag was rly super bad
so gave up trying to raze and throw nice wall blocks lol
damn nice sia, i at night hungry, he wake up cook maggi
morning gt breakfast and packed bread.
thankewww ^^

whoa and finally
reached the stage where u mean nothing to me.
fucking love this feeling \m/


been finding richard to slack
still sibei cock sia he HAHAH
we like take turns to emo one lol
cheer up bro (:
if she's urs shes urs, see me and tt cheryl
mian qiang shi mei you xing fu de (:
altho u hv her now, sooner or later will chui one.

THURSDAY FULL SHIFT SIA
8 to 10. jitao 11 hrs straight excluding break.
tired la, but cash in (((:

slow, thats e way to go 
wait for it (: